Love

i guess i need you.

isn't love one of those funny things, that causes you so much pain and yet you still go back for more.
the one person in the world who lightens my day and makes it worth my breathing, has caused me more pain than i care to remember.
but it isn't his fault. its always mine, as far as i remember.
i find it funny how someone can say that they're in love with someone, when they've not experienced the hurt of losing them yet.
Having to live without the one person who means so much to me, has taught me so much more than i felt was possible. All of my friends say that they didn't want to see or speak to me whilst i was in the state i was when i lost him.
so there is where my view has come from.

looking back on it, i feel like the word love has lost its meaning. fair play, we say it to our parents, because we do love them, because they brought us into this world, they have the same blood as us, and they share traits of ours, but how someone can say 'Love You' at the end of a phone call to a friend they have known for 2 weeks is beyond me. say i'm crazy, or trying to be older than i am, thats fine, but thats just my opinion.