for god sake.

i am sick and tired of being the one who constantly makes the effort.
with everyone!
my whole life i've gone round running after everyone else, but i know that if i stop, then i wont see anyone thats my world.
for example, my beautiful and perfect boyfriend, wont come and see me, unless i ask him to/arrange to meet him.
and i am SICK of it.
can someone not WANT to see me?
so that they'll go out of their way to come to me?
for god sake. tell me how you feel.
show me what you mean.
tell me you love me.
show me that you do.